I'm here.
Hello there :]
How am i? , hmm i don't know exactly. on this moment good my concact with the rest is a little bit better. today everyone said they like my new hair and were friendly. tomorrow i a talk test with my dutch teacher, and i think its going to be good. but thursday i have the same but then with FRENCH *___* i'm gonna die.
And yeah i was right my dad and my sister were very annoying yesterday in the restaurant, the food was tasty i have to say. tonight were more awake then i had slept. damn it was worse all the time i had to think about everything, but there's something where i haven;t be worries about. because all our money is still on our bankaccount =] so next saturday i should to amsterdam for a meeting but now i'm going earlier so i can do the shopping what i hadn't do last saturday.
xoxox A.
How am i? , hmm i don't know exactly. on this moment good my concact with the rest is a little bit better. today everyone said they like my new hair and were friendly. tomorrow i a talk test with my dutch teacher, and i think its going to be good. but thursday i have the same but then with FRENCH *___* i'm gonna die.
And yeah i was right my dad and my sister were very annoying yesterday in the restaurant, the food was tasty i have to say. tonight were more awake then i had slept. damn it was worse all the time i had to think about everything, but there's something where i haven;t be worries about. because all our money is still on our bankaccount =] so next saturday i should to amsterdam for a meeting but now i'm going earlier so i can do the shopping what i hadn't do last saturday.
xoxox A.
Phantom.
Hello dear
Today everything is going well, only my dad annoy me very much, with his speeches its like i can't everything good and blablabla, i love my new hair now. I hope simone don't think i copied her hair or something, it should be something for them to blame me for that >_< today its very warm and i like it. Tomorrow biking to school with Anna and simone happy for that that i haven't bike alone with Simone. i discoverd a new site, then you talk with strangers. you come in a chat with someone and then you can talk. i have talk now with people from sweden, finland, germany, china, america, brazil and the Uk :] i like talking with people from diffrend countrey's and stuff. in a hour we gonna eat in a italian restaurant. damn god why!? my father is always more anoying when we're eat somewhere else.
This is a quick made photo, i'll make more, say what you think of my hair =D
xoxox A.
Today everything is going well, only my dad annoy me very much, with his speeches its like i can't everything good and blablabla, i love my new hair now. I hope simone don't think i copied her hair or something, it should be something for them to blame me for that >_< today its very warm and i like it. Tomorrow biking to school with Anna and simone happy for that that i haven't bike alone with Simone. i discoverd a new site, then you talk with strangers. you come in a chat with someone and then you can talk. i have talk now with people from sweden, finland, germany, china, america, brazil and the Uk :] i like talking with people from diffrend countrey's and stuff. in a hour we gonna eat in a italian restaurant. damn god why!? my father is always more anoying when we're eat somewhere else.
This is a quick made photo, i'll make more, say what you think of my hair =D
xoxox A.
The worst day of my life.
Hi.
I write about i was so excited about saturday, yeah it was today. the hairdresser did my hair, its not bad but not what i want either, we bought some stuff, and then my mom her purse is stolen, when she wanted to pay my sweather. so the rest of the day was, to the police office, and go back home without money or money for food. now i'm finally home with a huge headache and pissed off mood, i wanted that sweather so badley, and we had to buy so much stuff, but one of a stupid guy stole my mothers purse with her Id card and creditcard, that people don't know what kind of problems the people of the stolen pure get. all the trouble with banks and ask for new cards I WANT TO BEAT THAT GUY TILL HE"S DEAD! >:[
I write about i was so excited about saturday, yeah it was today. the hairdresser did my hair, its not bad but not what i want either, we bought some stuff, and then my mom her purse is stolen, when she wanted to pay my sweather. so the rest of the day was, to the police office, and go back home without money or money for food. now i'm finally home with a huge headache and pissed off mood, i wanted that sweather so badley, and we had to buy so much stuff, but one of a stupid guy stole my mothers purse with her Id card and creditcard, that people don't know what kind of problems the people of the stolen pure get. all the trouble with banks and ask for new cards I WANT TO BEAT THAT GUY TILL HE"S DEAD! >:[
Paper Ganstar.
Hiya,
Hmm today i get up i was sooooo tired, so i take the bus to school, i had a long school day, till 4 pm but the whole day was peacefull [thank god] no one of my '' friendgroup'' was on school, maby thats why i didn't worry about things. my grades gonna be much better than before, why i don't know. tomorrow just 3 hours and than weeekend, omg i cant wait :] today i didnt eat much, only 2 bread and 2 rice wafer on school, oooh i'm so proud on myself, i didn't speak vince i heard nothing from him after saturday. i don't know it anymore.
xoxox A.
Hmm today i get up i was sooooo tired, so i take the bus to school, i had a long school day, till 4 pm but the whole day was peacefull [thank god] no one of my '' friendgroup'' was on school, maby thats why i didn't worry about things. my grades gonna be much better than before, why i don't know. tomorrow just 3 hours and than weeekend, omg i cant wait :] today i didnt eat much, only 2 bread and 2 rice wafer on school, oooh i'm so proud on myself, i didn't speak vince i heard nothing from him after saturday. i don't know it anymore.
xoxox A.
Did it hurt?
Hi peepz,
My life goes so wonderfull!! not, the only thing what made me happy was the beautifil trip this morning, on the way to school, it was mist and the sun was shining on the wet tree's it was magical to see, Simone was sick, so i had to bike alone, and actually i like it listen to music and thinking and watch the landscape its fine for me. Today i visited Brian to see his little cat Noodles and see how he's grow, omg he's so cute! :) later i biked home with Anna, i had to tell her my feelings and she helped me, and this evening i appologized myself to him, he say it was okay and stuff, but Simone called him and he tell her yeah, Amy appologized herself and its oke, but simone found it to funny and laugh me out, Then she called me and laugh more about it, i was like, oke BYE! damn, my mood was going down because of that.
Blaaargh. stupid world, its better to moved somewhere where no one knows me. People see me as sad because i didn't search for contact with people, but thats because i don't need it. i talk with the people i wanna talk and live in my own wold, in books and in my bed 8D ohyeah, tomorrow 2 repetions of Maths and Economics, my favoriet subjects [not] i'm gonna fail again.
Sweet night to your all.
xoxox A.
My life goes so wonderfull!! not, the only thing what made me happy was the beautifil trip this morning, on the way to school, it was mist and the sun was shining on the wet tree's it was magical to see, Simone was sick, so i had to bike alone, and actually i like it listen to music and thinking and watch the landscape its fine for me. Today i visited Brian to see his little cat Noodles and see how he's grow, omg he's so cute! :) later i biked home with Anna, i had to tell her my feelings and she helped me, and this evening i appologized myself to him, he say it was okay and stuff, but Simone called him and he tell her yeah, Amy appologized herself and its oke, but simone found it to funny and laugh me out, Then she called me and laugh more about it, i was like, oke BYE! damn, my mood was going down because of that.
Blaaargh. stupid world, its better to moved somewhere where no one knows me. People see me as sad because i didn't search for contact with people, but thats because i don't need it. i talk with the people i wanna talk and live in my own wold, in books and in my bed 8D ohyeah, tomorrow 2 repetions of Maths and Economics, my favoriet subjects [not] i'm gonna fail again.
Sweet night to your all.
xoxox A.
Big city dreams.
Sorry for 2 days no posts, but i wasn't in the mood
hi, i write this yesterday on school,
Hi people
I'm writing this while i'm on school, i'm on math's class now and its always boring. And my ipod is battery low, and i have to bike home on my own, Tonight i slept worse the last couple of nights are crap, and i get weird dreams, My social life is become a little bit better but there is something missing. I'm so facking jealous on the people here, there are french, italian and spanisch people here for exchange, they stay here for a week bij people of school. damn i want that so much, i hope i get that too next year, i love traveling and see new countreys new people and beautiful landscape.
xoxox A.
Sell it all to a perfect stranger
Hiyaa,
With me its gonna a lot better, i can talk with simone like before and i think i'm gonna appologize me for my stupid behaviour. The sun is shiny finally and its not to warm, i'm looking forward to Saturday, because then we going shopping in Amsterdam, My mom earn a lot of money so spedingspendingspending ofcoure and i'm going to the hairdresser can't wait my fringe is irritanting me and i want him shorter :) i hope its gonna look on me. that was it for now, i'm gonna write in the evening to let you know how my appolozy is going ;]
xoxox A.
Funeral song.
Evening,
Aaah, i'm so happy to be home! we went to the birthday of my big niece, there were so much people and it was so boring. I had send Simone and Vince a message, but both they didn't send something back, Vince didn't response my messages the last one of him was that he can't come to our appointment. :< i feel so fucking friendless i screw up everything, if i wasn't that headstrong, i haven't this problems with them, sometimes i think maby it was better when i live on my own in a Big city where i don't know people. living in villages as this is horrible!!
I think í'm going to bed now i'm so tired and my sister anoy me, so sleep wel.
xoxox A.
Aaah, i'm so happy to be home! we went to the birthday of my big niece, there were so much people and it was so boring. I had send Simone and Vince a message, but both they didn't send something back, Vince didn't response my messages the last one of him was that he can't come to our appointment. :< i feel so fucking friendless i screw up everything, if i wasn't that headstrong, i haven't this problems with them, sometimes i think maby it was better when i live on my own in a Big city where i don't know people. living in villages as this is horrible!!
I think í'm going to bed now i'm so tired and my sister anoy me, so sleep wel.
xoxox A.
The city is at war.
Omg, daaamn! the whole week can't wait till today, i should Vince, i was styling my hair and in hurry, i looked at my telephone and saw the battery is empty. i put him on the loader, and i had a message from him, that i don't come today.
The good mood of yesterday i totally gone! i know its not his fault that he have 2 days long a bloody nose, but why now, i have always something what dissapoint me when i look forward to something. he just say, i see you the next time. i'm always get be in love with the wrong one, now i know he don't see me, how i see him.
xoxox A.
The good mood of yesterday i totally gone! i know its not his fault that he have 2 days long a bloody nose, but why now, i have always something what dissapoint me when i look forward to something. he just say, i see you the next time. i'm always get be in love with the wrong one, now i know he don't see me, how i see him.
xoxox A.
Feel the hate in your veins.
Hello people,
Damn i'm so tired, and i had just 2 hours school. i don't really know what to do now, i want simone back, but she asking all the time why i cry on school, O_O now it looks like everyone likes him, now i think there is nothing to do about it and i have to accep it, the rest do very nice, why i don't know. Tommorow i see Vince again, i loonking forward to see him like the whole week, but now i don't spoke him in 2 days so i don't why. today the feeling of missing Dipshreekha and Aljona felt so much stronger, i wanna see them so much, i hope one day i can finally see them, Aljona her internet don't do it since 2 month's or something i so wanna speak to her!
i hope tomorrow it gets better weather, this rain and wind are not good for my mood.
xoxox A.
Damn i'm so tired, and i had just 2 hours school. i don't really know what to do now, i want simone back, but she asking all the time why i cry on school, O_O now it looks like everyone likes him, now i think there is nothing to do about it and i have to accep it, the rest do very nice, why i don't know. Tommorow i see Vince again, i loonking forward to see him like the whole week, but now i don't spoke him in 2 days so i don't why. today the feeling of missing Dipshreekha and Aljona felt so much stronger, i wanna see them so much, i hope one day i can finally see them, Aljona her internet don't do it since 2 month's or something i so wanna speak to her!
i hope tomorrow it gets better weather, this rain and wind are not good for my mood.
xoxox A.
In this Gray and White world.
I miss my little Huney!
My little rat Maxi, who opened his own door of his cage.
and died one day before my sister her birthday on an age of 3 28-10-06
xoxox A.
Bang bang! Shoot 'em up
Hey there.
Damn, my mood is going up and down, and on this moment it get worser and worser. I should begin with the whole story.
A couple of months ago, my best friend was only with her other best friend, [a boy,] i met an another boy on school we talked much and i feel good by him, and quick he was my Boy best friend. but some weeks later he act like a stalker, 5 times a day he asked if he can come here and i hadn't time for myself. he's gonna wear the same clothes as us, skinny jeans and stuff, he talked the same and contact all our friends, for me it was soo irritating, and i stopped talk with him. i though our group should do the same.
But, they like him, had fun with him, i can't see him, everything what he do is annoying, they have more fun with him than with me, i feel like replaced, and and outsider to my own friends. today my best friend did everything with him, what she 's normally do with me. today i haven't say much, if i feel hurt i don't speak much. ofcourse, i can't expect from them to not like him, and forbid them to hang out with him I've made a big mistake to become friends with him, and bring him to our group now he take my place and i'm out.
the whole day i feel the tears burning in my eyes i wanna go to the libary but it don't stop raining.
I'm tired, angry and sad its pathetic to worry myself so much about this, its my own fault.
xoxox.
Damn, my mood is going up and down, and on this moment it get worser and worser. I should begin with the whole story.
A couple of months ago, my best friend was only with her other best friend, [a boy,] i met an another boy on school we talked much and i feel good by him, and quick he was my Boy best friend. but some weeks later he act like a stalker, 5 times a day he asked if he can come here and i hadn't time for myself. he's gonna wear the same clothes as us, skinny jeans and stuff, he talked the same and contact all our friends, for me it was soo irritating, and i stopped talk with him. i though our group should do the same.
But, they like him, had fun with him, i can't see him, everything what he do is annoying, they have more fun with him than with me, i feel like replaced, and and outsider to my own friends. today my best friend did everything with him, what she 's normally do with me. today i haven't say much, if i feel hurt i don't speak much. ofcourse, i can't expect from them to not like him, and forbid them to hang out with him I've made a big mistake to become friends with him, and bring him to our group now he take my place and i'm out.
the whole day i feel the tears burning in my eyes i wanna go to the libary but it don't stop raining.
I'm tired, angry and sad its pathetic to worry myself so much about this, its my own fault.
xoxox.
Breath deeply and go further.
Hi ^^
Damn, i'm so happy to be home, my head hurt like hell and it feels like its gonna explode or something and i'm tired, my computer did fucked up, and now my itunes is stupid and won't do it! Today my old hirstory teacher get on the table and did like he was a bird [?] its was so stupid and the whol class laugh there ass off :']
but now something else, my feelings i can't decode them, the last few days i show my emotions with drawing, i don't know what it is, i feel hopeless. and i want to be with him, i thinking the most of the day about him. but i don't see myself kissing with him. but still i thinking about him, should i be in love? Saturday i meet him again, and now i want that it be Saturday and i'm excited. but i know i cant start something with me because in 4 months he is gone.
And i ate to much, so now i feel full and i have to eat my dinner in 30 minuts ;l
now he's look better than this xD
xoxox A.
Insanity is in our blood.
Hai ^^
Aah i have survived school, the whole day i'm bored and have really nothing to do, i'm tired and feel weird in my head, but tonight i laying in my bed so not now :'] i'm downloading new music, i get sick of my old playlist what i listen too much! today there was nothing of the weather of saturday, i'm so lucky, then we were by bus because the others had to bike in the rain lol. i'm to lazy for everything, i wanted to draw, clean my room or put new posters on my wall. weeks ago i should do that now its such a mess. damn, i have nothing to tell about.
I was clean my new computer and i saw old pictures of me and my sister of 2004 then i was 11 8D
Weren't we cutee (A)
xoxox. A
Damn, my long hair :']
Aah i have survived school, the whole day i'm bored and have really nothing to do, i'm tired and feel weird in my head, but tonight i laying in my bed so not now :'] i'm downloading new music, i get sick of my old playlist what i listen too much! today there was nothing of the weather of saturday, i'm so lucky, then we were by bus because the others had to bike in the rain lol. i'm to lazy for everything, i wanted to draw, clean my room or put new posters on my wall. weeks ago i should do that now its such a mess. damn, i have nothing to tell about.
I was clean my new computer and i saw old pictures of me and my sister of 2004 then i was 11 8D
Weren't we cutee (A)
xoxox. A
Damn, my long hair :']
Roadkill.
Goodmorning,
Damn is was late today again, of the good weather of yesterday is nothing now, its cold and so windy! i was in a hurry so i had no time to but my make-up on, now i did it here in the toilets on school but its worse!
today its gonna be any worser, because first i have economy, history, gymnastics and then 2 hours french, do you know how that sucks? next year its gonna be harder, much and much harder, and then you have to talk with your teacher in french without book, if i think about that, that i have to that next month and next year, i can go cry its so worse oh no 8D
I'm so bored here ómg there nothing to do. i wanna go home so badly and lay in bed. i'm so tired because i had to see Supernatural but that came late yesterdaynight. Now i gonna eat something and my lessons begin.
when i come out school i should write something!.
xoxox A.
Damn is was late today again, of the good weather of yesterday is nothing now, its cold and so windy! i was in a hurry so i had no time to but my make-up on, now i did it here in the toilets on school but its worse!
today its gonna be any worser, because first i have economy, history, gymnastics and then 2 hours french, do you know how that sucks? next year its gonna be harder, much and much harder, and then you have to talk with your teacher in french without book, if i think about that, that i have to that next month and next year, i can go cry its so worse oh no 8D
I'm so bored here ómg there nothing to do. i wanna go home so badly and lay in bed. i'm so tired because i had to see Supernatural but that came late yesterdaynight. Now i gonna eat something and my lessons begin.
when i come out school i should write something!.
xoxox A.
To meet, met, meeeting!
Goodmorning 8D
How're are ya? ^^ i love the spring whats going up now, its not too warm and not to cold, only its windy today, and i háte wind! but oke, i should write the whole day of yesterday [i think that line is not correct xD]
On 08:30 my mother woke me up, then i hat 2,5 hour to make myself clear to go, but i was so tired i get out bed on 9:00, then i put on my television and watched Spongebob, then i get on the shower and do my make up, an all that other things, i was late like always and i must run to the bus station where friends pick me up, they were 10 minuts late to, so that don't matter, we drive 30 minuts and finally we were there.
On the treinstation there were a lot of people, the most of them i didn't know, xD but then came Vincent we wait till the others and walked to the supermarket and park we talked, hang out and stuff, we sat on the ground and i say to a friend, omg that guy is pretty, the next thing she did was walked to him and say he have to go to us T_T'' later i was talking in a group and that guy walked everything along us, but he didn't talk to me. then i was walking to my bag and sitting there along, 2 seconds later he came to me to ask how're i doing and what my profile site was xD later we sat with 30 people in the mac Donalds and then to the trainstation, omg it get colder and colder and i wear a jack what was not warm ;l
The day was soooo amazing! omg, Vince/Vincent, i know him of Vampirefreaks and i met him yesterday for the 2nd time, but if feels like he's was always there on my side, i don't know how he see me but i see him as a very good friend, thats why i feel sad that he going to Canada in July. i should miss him so much!
Foto's of yesterday :)
i looked awfull but oke xD
xoxox A.
How're are ya? ^^ i love the spring whats going up now, its not too warm and not to cold, only its windy today, and i háte wind! but oke, i should write the whole day of yesterday [i think that line is not correct xD]
On 08:30 my mother woke me up, then i hat 2,5 hour to make myself clear to go, but i was so tired i get out bed on 9:00, then i put on my television and watched Spongebob, then i get on the shower and do my make up, an all that other things, i was late like always and i must run to the bus station where friends pick me up, they were 10 minuts late to, so that don't matter, we drive 30 minuts and finally we were there.
On the treinstation there were a lot of people, the most of them i didn't know, xD but then came Vincent we wait till the others and walked to the supermarket and park we talked, hang out and stuff, we sat on the ground and i say to a friend, omg that guy is pretty, the next thing she did was walked to him and say he have to go to us T_T'' later i was talking in a group and that guy walked everything along us, but he didn't talk to me. then i was walking to my bag and sitting there along, 2 seconds later he came to me to ask how're i doing and what my profile site was xD later we sat with 30 people in the mac Donalds and then to the trainstation, omg it get colder and colder and i wear a jack what was not warm ;l
The day was soooo amazing! omg, Vince/Vincent, i know him of Vampirefreaks and i met him yesterday for the 2nd time, but if feels like he's was always there on my side, i don't know how he see me but i see him as a very good friend, thats why i feel sad that he going to Canada in July. i should miss him so much!
Foto's of yesterday :)
i looked awfull but oke xD
xoxox A.
Goodmorning sunshine.
Halleu. ^^
Tonight i slept very well, the sun is shining but tonight it had frozen O_O But i feel the spring is comming up, i write this message very quick, because i have to school about 10 min, and i have to do my make up and my hair aswell, and haven't learn for my english test for today ;l Tomorrow there is a meeting Alkmaar again, damn i'm so excited see all that people again, i haven't see them for 3 months, so tomorrow a lot of hugs. Anna can't go with me, Simone can't go, and that stupid person should go, but now his parents forbid him, so i have to go on my own, but that doesn't matter :]
Whieeeh exciting ^^
Tonight i slept very well, the sun is shining but tonight it had frozen O_O But i feel the spring is comming up, i write this message very quick, because i have to school about 10 min, and i have to do my make up and my hair aswell, and haven't learn for my english test for today ;l Tomorrow there is a meeting Alkmaar again, damn i'm so excited see all that people again, i haven't see them for 3 months, so tomorrow a lot of hugs. Anna can't go with me, Simone can't go, and that stupid person should go, but now his parents forbid him, so i have to go on my own, but that doesn't matter :]
Whieeeh exciting ^^
Xoxox. A.
Fly open up the part of you that wants to hide away
Hi people.
the last week i feel so scheisse, there's so much, so much feelings inside, i don't have the words to describe them.
i feel so hopeless, an outsider and sad. all my friends have fun without me, yesterday i went to another group in the break, because i knew some time i get a angry outburst, and yeah that came, i should wait an hour for Anna because then we can ride togheter to home, but she say after that hour, i stay here with sharon, on the bike i get my outburst.
on school there is a boy, i can't stop starring at him, i know he don't even know my name, and he should never like me. my mind, my body are collapse, i can't even cry anymore, i don't know why i have this everyone annoy and irrtate me my best friend look like she found her other best friend way more important, just on this moment i need her so much.
everyone should think i'm a poseur, but i feel me so.
xoxox
the last week i feel so scheisse, there's so much, so much feelings inside, i don't have the words to describe them.
i feel so hopeless, an outsider and sad. all my friends have fun without me, yesterday i went to another group in the break, because i knew some time i get a angry outburst, and yeah that came, i should wait an hour for Anna because then we can ride togheter to home, but she say after that hour, i stay here with sharon, on the bike i get my outburst.
on school there is a boy, i can't stop starring at him, i know he don't even know my name, and he should never like me. my mind, my body are collapse, i can't even cry anymore, i don't know why i have this everyone annoy and irrtate me my best friend look like she found her other best friend way more important, just on this moment i need her so much.
everyone should think i'm a poseur, but i feel me so.
xoxox
Amy says she's all alone
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Fit and healthy? i try!
Hai people ^^
Today was awfull, first i was in a hurry to get the bus, so i forgot my food Ánd Ipod! my day shouldn't get better. my stomic was making noise in the lesson :'] but some people were so annoying that my mood get worser and worser, then thank god my mom wrote a note to my teacher that i haven't do gymnastics, the last 2 hour i had french and i we had a write test, we had to write a letter in french. now my mom gonna help me with make healthy food and stuff i'm happy with that, i though she don't wanna suport me in it, and by my dad i talk a lot about piercings -angel-
now i gonna take a shower and watch television, tomorrow to the doktor again. Hmpf
xoxox A.
Healthy isn't it cake and fresh orange juice
